Wow. It's been a while. I wish I could say that I 'forgot' about my blog because that would be easier on the conscience. In reality, I've actually been going out of my way to avoid it...
...because I'm terrified of blogging.
My writing style is constantly evolving. Posts I thought were fabulous back in 2012 now make me want to aggressively scrape my computer screen with a hunk of sandpaper. I mean, what if this post becomes one of those travesties? If that's going to happen, why bother? Why blog at all if every post will turn into a pile of yuck I'm condemning myself to clean up later?
Blogging doesn't come naturally to me. Part of that is because I'm still finding my blogging voice, and another part is because I feel like I have nothing valuable to contribute. I mean, am I REALLY qualified to be posting writing advice to the internet when I have yet to get a book contract? Am I just embarrassing myself with these posts where I pretend to know ALL the things? (Because I obviously don't.)
I usually feel guilty when I hit the Publish button. It's kind of like the guilt you have when you eat every chocolate chip cookie in what's probably a thousand+ calorie box—you know you shouldn't see the thing through to the end for your own sake, but since you made it this far, well, why the hell not?
And before you know it, it's done. You ate the whole damn box, you published the post, and Bob's your Uncle.
(Oh, and expect news on an upcoming book soon. For reals this time.)
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